Overload

To take my mind off of things and get my shit together I think I’ve bitten off more than I can chew.

I’ve been working out and eating clean – I’ve lost half a stone. And that has taken up a huge chunk of time by going to the gym and meal prep. I’ve also started drawing again and writing music. I’m teaching myself Swedish. I am working full time, doing an apprenticeship and volunteering as an animal health care assistant at the vets in preparation for my vet nurse training which is due to start in September. On top of this, I’ve started gaming again and I’m trying to see my friends more.

I’m trying to give myself a purpose. I’ve felt a little useless lately, even though my best friend who tells me how great he thinks I am everyday. I still feel totally….. irrelevant?

Things have the potential to be amazing, but are still so out of reach and you can’t make people love or want you. Even witch craft can’t do that. You can want someone so dearly but life gets in the way and some people just aren’t willing to work through it. – or that you’re not worth the effort?¿ I don’t know

But, I’ve realised I’ve not mentioned Millie in a while. She’s doing great, she’s not in work at the moment because I am a little strapped for cash and cannot afford her regumate to make her safe to ride. But she’s more than enjoying her time off. As soon as money gets better, I’ll be back on and training for the show season….. which begins next month.

I’m going to compete at preliminary level this year which is exciting and terrifying. Only one class up from introductory but it has the dreaded gate of canter thrown in.

I’m sure we will be fine. She’s great with throwing the right lead but it’s just the speed I’m concerned for. She looks the part and I’m going to try my best to keep her feathers this year. I’m not 100% sure I like her feathers but I didn’t give them much of a chance when I first got her. I want to see if they complement her movement and paces nicely, if they don’t I’ll clip them off and we can stick to our smart hunter look.

I also have a shopping list for this season

  • New riding hat
  • New navy show jacket that isn’t a hand me down
  • My own boots so my mum and I don’t have to frantically swap in between our classes
  • White gloves

It’s gunna cost me a bomb but I wanna look the part and fake it til I make it.

that’s all for now folks

Catch ya laters

Eloise💕

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Norman is ulcer free

I’ve recently mentioned that my mums Andalusian, Norman had stomach ulcers

A week ago he was re scanned and it all came back clear!

Norman hates loading and refuses to load, so the vets came to us. He has to be staves for over 12 hours before the scan. Last time when he loaded and we took him to the vets, his stomach was empty because the stress of being on the trailer made everything pass through quickly. This time, as he was scanned at home, he wasn’t stressed so even after 12 hours plus – he had bits of food in there!

But nothing we couldn’t wash away (yep, we WASHED the inside of his belly)

Here are some vids

Here a vid of the view on the way out through his nose

If you wanna know more about ulcers – check out my other blog post

Catch ya laters

Eloise💕

Back seat driving

Recently my riding ability has rocketed, with a mare full of tantrums I’m getting to the point where I can handle almost anything a horse throws at me. But I never realised how lazy I had gotten. And how much of the basics I’d forgotten.

After an abismal performance on my part at the dressage this weekend I asked my boss for a tidy up lesson. I had gotten sloppy, wiggly and tense. 

I ride zimmy, a full livery at work, at least four times a week. She is had work and extremely bendy, which I know is most riders dream, but she is like an eel and loves to use it the her advantage. Getting an outline on Zimmy recently has been near on impossible for me.

 Somewhere in practising my tests I’d forgetten to use my legs not just for going forward. And my lesson today made me realise that my laziness had made me a parasite. 

But at least I admit it, it is a hard to admit because horses are delicate and riding them harshly is cruel but it happens and no long term damage is caused if it’s sorted quickly. We all pick up bad habits and good horsemen/horsewomen will take comments as an opportunity to grow and develop as a rider. 

For me my problem is coordinating my legs and hands, I can’t push a horse into the hand whilst making little tweaks in the mouth and vise versa it has to be one or the other. My boss told me to tap left, right, left, right, left with my leg as I give and take left, right, left, right, left with the reins. It sounds so simple and god knows what I was trying to do before, but doing two things with different body parts on differnet sides of the body at different times is near on impossible. My hands on circles are also appalling I try to give and take with both reins and Zimmy just sticks her shoulder out and he neck becomes rigid. To stop this, my boss said to block her with the outside rein and give and take with the inside to push her straight along with constant tap tap taps of the leg to keep her bending nicely. AGAIN, ITS SO DAMN SIMPLE. This whole time I’d just been forcing her into a false hollow outline which she just fell out of just as quickly as I pulled her into it. 

As I say we all pick up habits and we all need them tidied up from time to time. I hadnt had a flatwork lesson for a long time before today so I knew I was going to be torn to shreds. 

But hey, everyday is a school day and I feel so much better for it! 

Catch you laters,

Eloise💕